Another boy, another dick in my mouth, another sigh in his bathroom mirror
I didn’t cum, but who cares? I think about some of them and I feel sick I do things I do not want to because I crave the attention and lack the respect
bruises on my breasts, I liked them at first, he spit in my mouth I wasn’t sure if I liked it or not
I liked getting smacked in the face until it started giving my headaches that seemed to last for days
I ask for numbers from boys I don’t even think are cute for the adrenaline rush, rejection has started to become rare and sometimes I wish it wasn’t he says he loves me and I mouth the words back but I know that I cannot be trusted, It’s cruel, what I am doing, but there I go again
“I love you, i’m here, i’m safe” I say all the things I wanted to hear from my mother, from my father, from myself
I become the perfect girl always smiling, feeling guilty when I say I cannot swallow: using rape as an excuse “He raped me anally” I say, but I do not mention how I feel that I cannot express boundaries without a dramatic excuse
I let boys between my legs as if I am nothing but parts to grab and arrange, I know all the words, perfected my moans, I know to arch my back, to compliment his cock, to lie between my teeth perfectly about how genuine I am
I pretend when they hold me after that it’s poetic. My brain scrambles to make it beautiful in some way but what if it’s not? What if it’s ugly? What if I can’t stand it anymore?
I fucked a boy and drank his beer and he never texted me back, I never heard from him again and none of them give a fuck about me. They want me to walk to them but have never massaged my feet they want to pull my hair but have never washed it. They want to touch my skin and they carefully ignore the scars carved into it, they say “it makes me sad” “I can’t look at them”
I want to tell them that they are the knife
I read an article the other day that said, “if you drink every day you are an alcoholic.” Thank god I only drink every night
- People who borrow their pen and never return it
- Lovers that don’t orgasm
- Being made jealous by a lover
- Being outshone at any task
- Dining without dignity
- Being the victim of gossip
- Being accused of being unfaithful (even if they are)
- People who are too trendy
- People who claim to be psychic
- Not being able to park in the handicapped space
If you can’t reblog this…
NEVER HAVE NEVER WILL
That’s a fucking low number. That’s fucking sad.
HOLY FUCK THE NOTES.
reblog EVERY TIME THIS IS ON YOUR DASH .
If you follow me and you don’t reblog this, we’re gonna have a little issue.
I will 500% judge you if you don’t Reblog
More people reblogged this than there are in my state??
More people reblogged this than there are in my COUNTRY??
Omg let’s make this to 9 million ++ !!
c’mon 10 milion+++ :)